"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." - C.S. Lewis
It's Sunday. Very early, Sunday morning. I'm far from sleep, from dreams, from rest.
Conflicted. It's the only word that suits me at this early hour.
I have a choice to make. My bare instincts scream at me to run as fast as possible in the other direction, to absolutely sever the ties that keep me bound to one of the things I fear the most. I want to completely hide myself, to climb into the coffin of my selfishness and wait for this to pass.
But if I do this, I will continue on, locked up forever, and become incurable. To run is to forfeit the joys and the reciprocation, to disobey my Lord's 2nd greatest command, to hurt someone who is very close to me. If I keep running, I will never be caught. I will never know the honorable, Godly, righteous love that could be mine and that I could return. I will be even further away from understanding that which frightens me, and when I truly fall in love in the future, I fear I will never be able to take off my running shoes.
This is hard. Ima go try to sleep.
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3 comments:
ima pray for you.
go bears.
ima also pray for you.
go colts :)
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